There is something about the air at dusk. It has an unusual quality; cold, with that hint of a breeze- the type of air you can breathe in fully and feel the wonderful energies of twilight infuse you. It is totally refreshing with a hint of the rapidly approaching night. An air of excitement, an air of the unknown- a sense of awe and wonder that anything could happen!
Up here, in the North of Scotland, even the summer nights have this cold and mysterious hue. When you live only a mile from a beach and the waxing Moon becomes apparent over the deep blue sky, you wish to experience this to the full. Merely opening my window and inhaling deeply transfixes me and I cannot resist the temptation to wander into the darkness…
I know that darkness will give me cover and that few people travel to the beach at night. Yes, I have been nude on the beach during the day- it is wonderful to feel the sun on my body and the sea air embrace me. At night though, the experience is even more invigorating. The warm sun is replaced with the cool breeze, a breeze that caresses and touches like the day breeze cannot, that reminds you of your nakedness at every moment.
It is slowly getting darker, the Moon is becoming brighter and the daylight is being replaced with the mysterious moonlight. I decide to venture down to the dunes. As I walk I notice that I am quite cold, even fully clothed. I wonder if a nude excursion at this time of night may be a little foolhardy. I walk on regardless! As I walk on it slowly gets darker, the last of the deep scarlet sunset disappears into a rich turquoise. The sand dunes that sparkle during the day, as the sun reflects off the glasslike grains, now look flat and creamy. In the moonlight the sand becomes like the lunar surface. I walk on further and hear some voices. I thought I would be alone, but there are still people about. I walk past them and realise that they are heading towards the car park. It may be cold and risky tonight. Should I go for a walk and forget the naturist trip? I think about this as I walk- No! I will go on to the sand dunes.
As I walk off the track into the dunes the walking becomes heavier. It is difficult to walk on sand, especially with shoes on. I take them off and walk barefoot on the sand. It feels cold and slightly damp- it sends of shimmer of life up my spine. A shimmer that reaches my head and grounds me into the night! Fully clothed you are separated from nature, from the beautiful and mysterious energies. Taking off shoes and walking barefoot is the ‘first contact,’ it is the first time you feel fully connected… and alive! The voices pale in the distance and I walk on through the cold night sand illuminated by the pale moonlight. I enjoy the sensation of the sand beneath my feet as I sink slowly during every step. I reach a bank of sand that formed my previous skyline. From here I can see the sea and look back into the countryside. I notice cars along a distant road, lit up as a distant symbol of the industrial world. The contrast is breathtaking- the Moon reflecting off the sea and the cars on the road. I walk along this bank of sand into a sheltered dune.
In the dune I take off my warm jacket and begin to slowly undress. The first hints of the cold night lightly caress my skin. I remove my jeans and tee-shirt and finally underwear and stand naked in the dunes. I am aware of the slightly moist and misty Scottish atmosphere forming tiny drops of due on my bare skin. They tingle and ground me into the moment. I take a deep breath and close my eyes. Using ancient Chi Kung I slowly earth myself. My body seems to sink and solidify as my awareness moves from my busy mind to my skin. Standing still makes me cold and I shiver slightly, I still wonder if it is too cold for a nude walk. I scramble up the sand dune and look around as the breeze embraces me. I shout out aloud as I feel totally invigorated by the sensations. I feel totally naked and at one with the earth!
I decide to proceed with my walk and gingerly at first make my way towards the sea. It feels very light walking without the impediment of clothing, I seem to glide effortlessly across the sand. As I walk on I experience an adrenaline rush which brings my awareness back to my nakedness and enhances the sensations and connection with the earth. I walk for ten minutes across the moonlight sand until I arrive at the sea. It is a totally awe inspiring view. The Moon, now shining through a sea mist, reflecting off the ruffled water. It fills me with a longing to enter the sea- the ultimate moonlit skinny dip! I have warmed up and my body is now accustomed to the night.
I slowly enter the water expecting it to be freezing! It is not as cold as I thought originally and venture deeper into the sea. The waves break across my legs and send a fountain of water down on me! I breathe in sharply and hold my breath as my heart races. What a feeling! I walk back onto the shore as the seawater slowly evaporates in the breeze. It feels like I am becoming more naked, if that were possible. The salty water embracing my body and evaporating. As it disappears I become blissfully aware of all areas of my body in turn as they are cooled by this wonderful sensation. I decide to re-enter the sea and repeat this experience. I walk into the wet sand and slowly into the waves. I wade in up to my waist. As the water reaches my waste-line I suddenly become very cold and backtrack to the shore. Yet again I feel the water cool as it evaporates. I can smell the rich smell of the sea on my skin and feel part of nature.
I walk further down the shore, the waves lapping against my feet. As I dry I feel very warm. The sea has left a residue of salt on my skin that cloaks me- natural clothes! I venture back into the sea, this time I kneel down in the waves. As they break they drench my entire body. Bliss! I am knocked over by a particularly big wave and after spitting out the salty seawater, crawl onto the shore. The feeling of the wet sand beneath me is very earthy. It is almost like mud! I enjoy this feeling and roll in the sand, my body becomes covered and I look like a ‘Sand Man!’ I walk down the shore feeling totally at one with nature, my body encased in sand like an ancient ritual. The Moon still shines on the water and the wind cools any exposed sections of my body. I walk for a mile or so in the lapping waves, walking toward the main beach that is crowded with people during the day.
After a seeming eternity lying on the beach watching the Moon, I decide to wash off the sand in my final skinny dip. The cooling sea washes off the sand and leaves me feeling totally naked again. I walk from the sea into the sand dunes. This time I walk to the top of a high dune and allow the wind to dry me. It is a wonderful feeling as it does so- it permeates my every fibre. I feel so alive and human. I have been washed clean of industry and society, of the values and beliefs of a soul-less world. I am at one with nature as the moonlight reflects off my pale skin. I notice my shadow as I walk back to the sand dune where I left my clothing. The sand seems orange. I cross the great wall of sand and slowly reached the dune. I reflect on my experience and stand watching the night for one last time…